Run Back To Him

“一个苦者对牧师说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”牧师说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”他说：“可是我就偏偏放不下。”牧师让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。苦者被烫到马上松开了 手。牧师说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

Translate this in English:

"A man who was in suffering came forward and told a pastor about his problem:" I can't put down some business, and also some people." The pastor then gave him a cup. The pastor poured hot water into the cup until the water flowed out. The suffer man then quickly released the cup. The pastor said:" There is nothing in this world can't put down, you will release when you feel there is uncomfortable."

What do we understand above? Yes, it is nothing wrong that to release which uncomfortable feeling. What actually that uncomfortable to you recently? Nowadays we really release or put down or give up something easily. Maybe there is not a individual decision but a popular style nowadays, sometimes.

What do we release or put down or give up? We do not show the real presentation on surface which we are going to let go. Let go and let go and finally no more naturally. Something that we must cherish and think about it. Something that we must put down but not give up. Am I stubborn and stupid if I still hold it even though I feel uncomfortable?

What I have to put down but not give up is myself. Yes, I can't accept, can't hear to, don't want to...but it doesn't mean I have to resist. I can ignore and let go but can't reject. 

Review in 2010, there were not totally good but also not extremely bad. How can I start afresh since I am still weak? Can I disappoint while ‘on the way’ of start afresh? If someone has this problem and ask me, I will tell him/her that: “Even though you are weak, but God is always there.” Actually there is not much function… I am not implying that God cannot help. If people can really help to solve my critical situation or mind, that is not critical. I am already 24… Actually force and force to me, not much ‘work’ but only let me feel pain in heart. People had influence me much and easily, but I myself had influence myself lesser. “Hey KokHow, please look back yourself… Don’t cover and hide your thinking anymore. Your loose or limitation is not your lose or false unless you have given up or rejected from it.” In nearer to end of 2010, I always sang a Chinese song:

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曲：伍思凯

词：姚谦

时间已作了选择 什么人叫做朋友

The time is already make a choice that what type of people is called friend

偶尔碰头 心情却能一点就通

The minds can be matched in short even though only meet occasionally

因为我们曾有过 理想类似的生活

There is because we have the similar type of life before

太多感受 决非三言两语能形容

A lot of feeling but cannot describe in a few words

可能有时我们顾虑太多 太多决定需要我们去选择

Maybe sometime we are worrying a lot

A lot of decisions need to select

担心会犯错 难免会受挫 幸好一路上有你陪我

Worry that will do the wrong way

Hard to avoid suffering

But fortunately I have you accompany me along the way

与你分享的快乐胜过独自拥有

To share with you was better than I have my own (alone)

至今我仍深深感动

Until nowadays I still touching deeply

好友如同一扇窗能让视野不同

A good friend is like a square of window

Which able to present various type of visions

与你分享的快乐胜过独自拥有

To share with you was better than I have my own (alone)

至今我仍深深感动

Until nowadays I still touching deeply

好友如同一扇门让世界(变)开阔

A good friend is like a rectangular of door

Which able to have a wider world/haven

Before the last three months were coming (October to December 2010), I had to plan smartly. I had planned that internship period which fulfill at least twelve weeks. During internship, I had written report every week, meanwhile I had to organize a camp for the Form 1 students. After internship, I had continued burned for the camp. Am I did a lot of extra that actually can be ignored? Really not… Even though only three days and two nights, but I got a lot… Not only me but brothers and sisters, and even the Form 1 students, who had taken part in the camp. In addition, I have not only experienced but also learnt a lot.

Thanks God that all ran smoothly and successfully. The lost of my way is the begin of His way! Haha, sure that I won't forget my beloved, Xue Ying. She help me a lot and she is my super beloved. Maybe I can't done well without her...fully support! Dear Xue Ying, I appreciate you, I love you forever!